Juggling 4 kids and a household is proving to take up a lot of my time, who would have thunk it? So while Charlie sleeps on me, I'll post a quick update - and then it's off to bed for me!
Charlie is doing really well. He is such an easy going baby - knock on wood. He has his cranky moments, but for the most part he sleeps or eats most of the day. He prefers sleeping on me to sleeping anywhere else, and I'm perfectly okay with that. I hate putting my babies down in the early months. It's especially bad with Charlie because I know we are nearing an end on having kids, so it makes every moment even more precious. We are definitely having at least 1 more, maybe 2 children but I am starting to feel closer to being content. At Charlie's 2 week check up he weighed in at 7 lbs 11 oz! Thats 1 lb 5.5 oz gain from birth! I think for the first time I'm making cream instead of skim milk - and I credit my placenta capsules to that.
I have had a few moody, hormonal days but for the most part I feel pretty normal. It may or may not be the placenta capsules, but whatever it is I'm happy - for now. I was really worried about PPD with this pregnancy because I've battled depression for nearly a decade, and this pregnancy was pretty bad. So far I'm doing well and I hope that keeps up. I haven't been getting nearly enough sleep, which concerns me, but so far it's not completely messing my head up.
Chris and I have cheated a bit with the Primal diet, but I think we've figured out a decent balance, for now. Grains are the worst food for me, especially, so we are trying to hardcore refrain from those. I can tell when I eat grains how badly it is affecting me, within a few hours my entire body aches. It makes me a bit angry that grains have been hailed as being so healthy, and the more I look into it the more I realize that this wasn't always believed to be true - it's just politics that make it appear to be true. Maybe had I known I could have saved my wrists. I can now feed myself with my right arm, wash my own hair, touch my face, touch the back of my head, ect... with my right arm. All from eliminating grains.
We saw the surgeon again last week. He is so impressed by the changes in my elbow that he no longer wants to do surgery on it - for now. This is great news! He still wants to go ahead with the fusion, however he wants me to meet with the rheumatologist to ensure that there is absolutely nothing else that can be done first. I see him Thursday, and I see my surgeon again next Friday. In the meantime he had custom made braces fitted for my hands to help the pain, and to simulate what a fusion will be like.
Anthony's last day of school is Thursday, and I couldn't be happier. Every day I hear him tell me about the candy he was given and the movies he watched - it totally pisses me off. We are both eager to begin homeschooling. We are starting on the 31st - Chris and I are planning to switch to year round school and give days/weeks off where WE see fit.
Our puppy, Jovi, is just over 4 weeks old now. I can't wait to bring him home. He is looking more like a Golden than a Huskie, and Chris is thrilled. He wanted more Golden features. He's so tiny still but he's looking more and more like a puppy. It's absolutely amazing how quickly he's changed.
The next post, I promise, will contain some updated pictures of everyone. Hopefully it won't be weeks before that happens.
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